Back to the Real World
I’m starting a new job tomorrow. It’s a full time, legal peon job that hopefully leads to a full time, legal lawyer job when and if I pass the bar.
Steph asked me if I’m excited about the job. I gave an honest answer - “not really.” I remember being really excited about my first foray into full-time, salaried employment right out of college. I was excited to see what it felt like to work in a tall shiny building, have my own work-issued laptop, and live inside a cubicle with my name on a hanging placard.
Now, in my first foray into full-time, post-law school employment, there really isn’t any excitement. All I feel is a little anxiousness, for a number of reasons. First, I’m anxious about whether I can do a good job right from the start. The problem with me is that I put a lot of pressure on myself at the start of a job. I practically obsess over my first few assignments. The reason? I’m a huge believer in the power of first impressions. I know people say they’re open minded, but the first impression you portray in a workplace can make all the difference in the world. I was fortunate enough to make a fairly good first impression at my first job and all I can say is that the rest of my tenure gave me a peek into the life of a very attractive person; one where things just seem to go your way more often than not.
The second reason I’m anxious is that this is my first paying job in a for-profit legal setting. For the most part, I think that law schools don’t really teach students how to be lawyers. Law schools teach relevant laws and issues, but don’t teach about how those laws and issues are put into practice. One of my most memorable moments in law school was submitting my first written assignment at the start my first internship with the Attorney General’s office. When I saw the finished copy, I realized that my work had comprised the majority of an acceptable legal document. It was real proof that I had made strides towards becoming a lawyer. That was huge for me. That being said, all of my work experience has been in lower pressure government or judicial settings where I was an unpaid intern. Tomorrow I’m starting work in a for-profit, private firm setting as a paid worker, so it’ll be a change.
The third reason I’m anxious is that I have to get to work pretty early and my drive to work right now is pretty long. I also tend to have a lot of eye crust in the mornings and sometimes forget to zip up my fly. I’m anxious about that too.







